As the title suggests I'm a shitty daughter sometimes.
Today is the birthday of a very important person in my life: my father. And because I suck....I forgot it was his birthday. I feel really bad about this so allow me to apologize:
I'm so sorry pops, you always remember my important day and it's totally unfair of me to forget yours. I'm sorry.
Je t'aime pops, I'm sorry I forgot your special day........I will make it up to you!
xoxo's
your sometimes shitty leader
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Benedict Cumberbatch...........funny name, gorgeous creature....
This is most beautiful man in the world----->
he plays "Sherlock" in the new and improved BBC version and I think he's sex on legs.....and that's funny because I don't even swing that way!
I don't know what it is about him but I think he's divine. Maybe it's the posh richness of his baritone British accent, or perhaps it's his height ( he's insanely tall) or maybe it's the almond eyes that aren't blue or grey or green but a combo of all three...it might be the combo of pale, pale skin with that shock of dark curly hair.......whatever it is.......Benedict Cumberbatch is so pretty it makes even totally gay girls like me drool just a little. Would I shag him....no, I'm queer to the core, but I still can admire a beauty regardless of their sex/gender.
If you don't watch the BBC's "Sherlock" then go watch it and then you'll understand.
he plays "Sherlock" in the new and improved BBC version and I think he's sex on legs.....and that's funny because I don't even swing that way!
I don't know what it is about him but I think he's divine. Maybe it's the posh richness of his baritone British accent, or perhaps it's his height ( he's insanely tall) or maybe it's the almond eyes that aren't blue or grey or green but a combo of all three...it might be the combo of pale, pale skin with that shock of dark curly hair.......whatever it is.......Benedict Cumberbatch is so pretty it makes even totally gay girls like me drool just a little. Would I shag him....no, I'm queer to the core, but I still can admire a beauty regardless of their sex/gender.
If you don't watch the BBC's "Sherlock" then go watch it and then you'll understand.
RIP Reid Oliver
Allow
me to preface this article by saying that I am not an avid soap opera watcher. I don’t have the time, I
don’t own a television, and I find the melodramatic storylines ridiculous and
absurd. Now with that said, I have a confession to make. I have become
embarrassingly attached to one soap opera in particular: As The World
Turns on CBS. In my defense I never watched
the show until just recently when something rather ground breaking happened:
two gay characters were added and thus As The World Turns became famous for having the first gay teen couple
in soap opera history. I know it
doesn’t sound all that impressive, I mean who cares, right? So they have a gay
teen couple, big deal, only, it is when considering the gay population of the
world feels really excluded from the general media. Speaking as a member of that excluded community, I can tell
you I felt intrigued and very curious with the direction these characters would
take.
So I watched
whenever I could, and I have to admit I was disappointed with what the writers
did. The two characters, Luke Snyder and Noah Mayer, went through hell, and a
lot of the dysfunction and obstacles they faced always had something to do with
their sexual orientation. I understand the point behind soap opera’s, they’re
supposed to be insanely melodramatic and ridiculously suspenseful, but at the
same time I felt a twinge of aggravation at the fact that boys’ screen kisses
usually ended up being interrupted or were cut so short as the camera would
faze out or would cut away just as they were about to kiss so that their actual
lip lock time was extremely limited in comparison to that of the straight
characters. Everyone knows that part of a romantic relationship revolves sex;
well perhaps someone should inform the writers on CBS, because Luke and Noah
had virtually no sex life. They cuddled, snuggled, shared gentle caresses and
gazed loving at each other, but as for sex, there almost none. There was only
one time when it was implied that they had slept together, the camera focused
in on a bed with rumpled sheets and then zoomed out to show the boys leaving
the bathroom together with wet hair and towels. Perhaps I should have been
grateful for at least that much, but when I realized that the straight couples
were constantly bed hoping and in heated lip locks, I was upset.
After a while, I
grew bored with the characters and the constant drama that they went through.
There came a point when the chemistry went dry and so for a while, I stopped
watching. One day over this past summer, I was bored and thought maybe I check
back in and that’s when I was confronted with a pleasant surprise: a new
character had been added and after hearing some of his dialogue I was
thoroughly intrigued. Reid Oliver was snarky, clever, somewhat rude, confident,
a successful neurosurgeon, attractive and gay. Unlike almost all of the other
characters on the show, he wasn’t related to anyone, he wasn’t anybodies long
lost son or brother or a dirty secret from someone’s past…he was entirely
unique. I think the part I liked best about him was that he made fun of how
everything was so dramatic on show while he was in character. I admired him for
being unapologetic for who he was and for his clever sarcastic humor and for
not fitting a stereotype. He was basically the gay version of Dr. House and he
gave the show some serious spice.
Reid Oliver became Luke Snyder’s new
love interest as Luke and Noah had recently broken up, yet again, and the sparks between them were intense. Both
characters played off of each other perfectly; the sexual energy between them
was intoxicating and when they finally kissed for the first I was delighted. I
soon found out that As the World Turns was going off the air this fall after a 54 years and I knew that
writers were trying to wrap up the show and all its many tangled story lines as
quickly as possible.
So, in a span of a few weeks three
dramatic things happen: Reid Oliver was in competition with another character
for a position as the medical chief of staff at the hospital on the show, his
rival finds out he has a serious heart condition that he chooses to ignore and
Luke realizes he’s fallen in love with Reid. While drama ensues I started
paying attention to the physical interactions between Luke and Reid and I
realized that they were almost identical to that of Luke and Noah, that is to
say their kisses and all other sensual and flirty dialogue and body language
was cut to a minimum.
To be blunt, the ending sucked. Reid’s
competition is landed in the hospital has his heart condition goes worse and
then it turns out he needs a new heart. Reid decides he’s going to get a new
heart for him, confesses to Luke that he loves him, gets in his car and ends up
stalling on railroad tracks with a speed training heading right for him. Of
course, Reid then is in critical condition and just before he goes brain dead
he and Luke have an incredibly sad farewell and one last kiss and then Reid
signs over his heart to his rival. A lot of people have asked why I’m so upset
with this ending, they see it as a beautiful thing that Reid would do something
so compassionate as to give over his own heart to someone in need…..and it is,
but what frustrates me is the relationship mirrors that of Luke and Noah which
was so restrained and tightly controlled compared to the heterosexual romances
on the show. Luke and Reid never got to have sex, their kisses were limited and
constantly being interrupted and just after Reid and Luke both acknowledged
their love and respect for each other…Reid dies. On the final show, every
heterosexual character was in partnership with someone, but Luke was alone and
mourning, and as lame as this sounds, I actually cried.
I
know soap opera’s are what they are for a reason: because if real life were
like a soap opera then we’d all be insane. They’re fun and trashy to watch, a
guilty pleasure of many and a way to escape reality. I get that, that’s one of
the reasons I got hooked myself. I was just hoping that the writers would
perhaps be more evolved in their views of what it means to be gay and living in
a world where virtually everything seems to be against us. The media is full of
subtle and not subtle ideals of what kind of ending gay people have verses
everyone else, we don’t seem to get happy endings very often. I guess in my
naivety I thought that this soap opera would be bold enough to help change
that…..I was wrong. I wrote this for two reasons: I wanted to give my
perspective on what happened to this wonderful and very dynamic character. In
my opinion, killing Reid off was a cowardly and lame thing to do, which brings
me to my second reason. I wanted to say goodbye to him, lame and weird sounding
perhaps, but having him die felt like losing someone I was close to. It hurt. I
was attracted and attached to what he represented to me: a strong outspoken gay
man who never apologized for who he was.
That to me is worthy of admiration and remembrance. So, even if you
don’t know who Reid Oliver is, or have never seen As the World Turns, I hope you will recognize what he represents:
another brave, outspoken and fearless gay person to be cut down by a homophobic
society. Rest in Peace Reid, I won’t forget you.
Meet Oakdale's sexiest and snarkest doctor: Reid Oliver.....my hero!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
I've seen the face of evil, it goes by the name of biology
Biology for me is like study a dead language with no tools for translating.
Biology is like a combo of the world's worst migraine, pulling all my teeth out (by myself) and having the worst menstrual cramps all wrapped in one painful experience.
I have a test tomorrow that I feel utterly doomed for. I'm an A-B student but this class makes me feel like an utter failure and an idiot to boot. Fuck Biology........seriously...fuck it.
cheers,
your leader
Biology is like a combo of the world's worst migraine, pulling all my teeth out (by myself) and having the worst menstrual cramps all wrapped in one painful experience.
I have a test tomorrow that I feel utterly doomed for. I'm an A-B student but this class makes me feel like an utter failure and an idiot to boot. Fuck Biology........seriously...fuck it.
cheers,
your leader
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